I've felt it for so many years. I knew there was something calling to me, but I couldn't put my finger on it. I knew it was something that would leave my stamp on the world. Something to prove that I had existed. I also knew that there was one thing standing in my way...fear.
Hindsight is 20/20, but if you don't have to find your way through the fog and navigate through some uncertainty, how do you ever develop the character to become who you were truly meant to be? Life is many layered, and that's what makes it interesting. It's the intricacy of each individual layer, compounding with the next, that allows us to become whole. Sometimes you don't see the layers that are hidden beneath, but they always make a difference. Each one is important and that's where the beauty happens.
They say life imitates art, but in my case, my art imitates life. Many complex layers, one upon another, filling the canvas until, eventually, the gift of clarity appears.
My fear is gone.
I now realize, every day, that my true purpose is to evolve.
Art, like life, teaches me again and again that all possibilities and all things worthwhile, are available if I can just let go and surrender, happily, to the present.
Never be afraid of change, because it always leads you to a new beginning.
I've found the perfect balance right between what I thought I should be doing and every wild and crazy dream I ever had. It's that war between your head and your heart. Your head is screaming, "no way!" while your heart is whispering, "hell yeah!".
I so often wondered, "Who should I Iisten to?"
And now I know...